Actually I don't know what you think before going to school on your first day after Summer. But I think almost every of us have these feelings. 

Why I decided to write this post? No, I'm not going to a new school. Actually I decided to write a post because I'm sick at heart now. And I don't know why. Its weird . 

When I came from post office I was thinking about school, about my feelings , about new people. 

" Did I do it right?", " Did I say it right", " Why I can't control my feelings?", " Why I can't control myself?", " Am I sincere?" , " Am I fake?" . Why I can't be more open to people? Why I can't be more confident? Because I am shy. 

Yeah I'm shy. Some of my friends said me that it's cute part of me. But it's hard. It's hard to meet with new people. It's hard to start a new conversation because you think you're boring. It's hard to say something because you have a fear. And because of the shyness you have awkward moments. And its happening over and over again. Is that cute ? I don't think so. 

No , don't think that I'm hiding in my hoodie. But I can not be so open and confident. 

When I came from post office I was sick of myself. I did not understand what I did with myself. I can't communicate with people just because I don't know what to say. Be interested in everything: science , travel, arts , religion, health, sport ,music, films, books just everything. No, it's not for other people it's FOR YOU . Just because  you completely change your mind!

It's hard to day something because I have a fear. Yeah , but if you'll say something wrong in class. So what's then? What will be ?Nothing. It's only a mistake. Everyone has mistakes. Or if you say something wrong in people. So what's then ? Just can laugh at yourself. Just everyone could be in your shoes . 

So I have to stop all of this. I have to stop the shyness. 

It was just a little ( no its not) letter to me from myself. And , guys, maybe it helps to you. 

                                                                                                                   thank you! x